Spoiled whine.
Feb. 9th, 2009 05:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
averygoodun42As I was driving home from dropping Babe off at school this morning, I was confronted with a big column of smoke in the vicinity of Geoff's work place. As I drove closer (still on my way home), I was pretty sure it wasn't Geoff's work, but I was starting to be very afraid it was the nearby junior high school. I had the very ungenerous sigh of relief to pull into Geoff's work lot to find it was the building 100 meters away... 100 meters from Geoff's work and 100 meters from the school. I feel horrible for those who lost their homes (and businesses), though I hear no one was injured, and for that I am thankful, but oh my goodness, thank god it wasn't the school!
Fires like that sure make the cramped building conditions around here scary, though. The firefighters basically gave up on the burning building and focused on preventing the spread to the neighboring houses.
Today is one of those days where I feel like I fail. I fail at motherhood (Babe's teacher told me he was a brat at school, had to be sent to the office, and then went and beat on a kid while waiting in the carpool line. Then this afternoon he had another 'accident'. He has fabulous bodily control, btw. The other day he forced himself to shit in his pants just because he was mad at me. And speaking of which, how do you get through to a four-year-old that no energy means no energy but doesn't mean no love? Hmph. I do so love this job), I fail at responsibility, I fail at ironing and I fail at life in general.
The only thing I can pride myself on is figuring out why we're so broke. Too bad it's not something that we can cut from our budget. (We're now one of those families you hear about where it's a choice between food and health insurance. Unfortunately, we're locked into the current insurance contract till November. Ironic thing is that because of the cost of co-pays, we're not going to be taking the preventative measures we should be... And what the hell are we paying over $7,000 a year in insurance for if we can't afford to go to the freaking doctor?!? Bah.)
I know I've got it good. I'm alive, I have a roof over my head (for the moment), I'm quite well fed, and relatively healthy. But I must say I had hoped to put off getting a job, even a part-time job, until Babe was in school proper. But... needs must.
Fires like that sure make the cramped building conditions around here scary, though. The firefighters basically gave up on the burning building and focused on preventing the spread to the neighboring houses.
Today is one of those days where I feel like I fail. I fail at motherhood (Babe's teacher told me he was a brat at school, had to be sent to the office, and then went and beat on a kid while waiting in the carpool line. Then this afternoon he had another 'accident'. He has fabulous bodily control, btw. The other day he forced himself to shit in his pants just because he was mad at me. And speaking of which, how do you get through to a four-year-old that no energy means no energy but doesn't mean no love? Hmph. I do so love this job), I fail at responsibility, I fail at ironing and I fail at life in general.
The only thing I can pride myself on is figuring out why we're so broke. Too bad it's not something that we can cut from our budget. (We're now one of those families you hear about where it's a choice between food and health insurance. Unfortunately, we're locked into the current insurance contract till November. Ironic thing is that because of the cost of co-pays, we're not going to be taking the preventative measures we should be... And what the hell are we paying over $7,000 a year in insurance for if we can't afford to go to the freaking doctor?!? Bah.)
I know I've got it good. I'm alive, I have a roof over my head (for the moment), I'm quite well fed, and relatively healthy. But I must say I had hoped to put off getting a job, even a part-time job, until Babe was in school proper. But... needs must.
