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I am selective about what routines I follow, as I'm rather anti-authoritarian in nature (including the authority that is me), but recognize that I do have a few routines I do not like to have disturbed. One of the most sacrosanct is my morning goof-off routine: I get up, drink a big glass of water (usually with B12, C and D added), hustle the kid into to doing what needs to be done to get out of the house to catch the bus, then I make myself something to eat and sit myself in front of the computer for a sudoku and two crosswords.

I am flexible enough to allow myself to stay in bed and let Geoff deal with the hustling part every now and again (or always).

I have, alas, found that this routine is not necessarily in my best interest, so I have to change it. Which I don't want to, but if I don't, I won't feel good. Ever. Again.

I exaggerate. I won't feel good until the buried remains of today digs itself out of the earth! And then blooms.

So, yeah. My morning routine needs to include a light lamp. And exercise. And god, does that horrify me. (The exercise part, that is. The light lamp part is just boring.)

And there's nothing for it but to start. And restart. And restart again and again and again. Because, darn it, I do have quite the selective memory about things I don't want to do.

So here's to changing one's routine. Because "good enough" isn't.
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Went to the college transfer fair, and, well... Hmm. It's possible I will not go for a bachelor's and master's after all. I haven't given up on the idea, but I will need to talk to the admissions and financial aid offices of the universities I'm considering to see if any of them offer scholarships, prorated, of course, to this particular part-time student. Because, well, I can not afford to go to any of those schools without scholarship aid. Not with only 20 post-grad working years projected. Uh-uh. And I am physically unable to attend full-time, even if I wanted to.

Another disappointment, though one with a good side, is that should I manage to find a school that will provide scholarship funds to part-time students, I would be counted as "non-matriculated" - meaning no financial aid at all would be offered, including by the government - if I started in the spring semester. So I don't have to rush the next year quite so much. Meaning, I can take that year and a half.

So... yeah. Perhaps being an acupuncturist-to-D.O. isn't for me after all. Perhaps. As I said, I haven't given up yet. I have a pretty good transcript, so I might be able to wrangle some sort of merit money yet. And, if not, well, that's more time to devote to art, writing and Page. And finding an appropriate part-time job to pay for the health insurance bills.

*shrugs*

Of course, this makes it very tempting to just quit school altogether, especially given how tired I've been lately. But, I am not going to. I WILL get my associates. I WILL. If only because I'll get a better part-time job because of it. *nods*
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I think I shall name it:

The Crux of the Matter: Life sucks, but it isn't worth dying over.
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Without being a senior. Technically, I'm only a sophomore. But, well...

It is so hard getting myself to study these days. I have a midterm coming up on Friday that I NEED to study for (if I want to retain my 4.0 GPA), and all I can think is, "I can do it tomorrow, can't I?"

(The answer to that is a very emphatic NO!!!, as I'm a pathetically slow reader with very short concentration span. I can only read for about an hour before I start falling asleep. That hour is about 10 pages' worth. I typically have only one or two useful studying spans a day.)

The stupid thing is that I'm really enjoying both my classes. The Human Growth and Development course is really interesting, and the classes are downright fun. The photography course is also fun and interesting in its own way, and I'm really glad to be learning what I have been.

I just... I don't know. I guess I feel like I'm being pulled three or four (major) ways, and the studying is suffering because I haven't decided which ways deserve what amount of attention. I would really like some time off. I think I'm really paying for taking that summer course...

:-/

Anyway. Should go study. Either that or rewatch that video with Geoff and Page. But faffing around on the web trying to find something that doesn't bore me is just stupid and I need to stop that.

*nods*

Happy Bartolomé Day to all my American friends. (Because Columbus isn't worthy of celebrating.)
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Now the Satanists are ganging up against the Westboro Baptist Church.

Color me pink, indeed. XD

Meanwhile, it's still unbearably hot, though the humidity level has (temporarily) dropped to a more manageable 50%, which means the sweat oozes out rather than pouring out. Too bad a thunderstorm is acomin'.

I also stopped by the school and switched up my fall semester. I will not be taking Excel with this teacher. I shall be taking Human Growth and Development, instead (ETA: with a completely unknown teacher, btw. Not the same teacher... *rolls eyes at self*). Yay! Spring semester will be unpleasant with its emphasis on using computer software, but, well, tough noogies. Better than another class with this ditz.

So, errands run, now to finish this week's homework so I can goof off for a day or two. :-) Or put my energies into housework... :-(

;-D

Cheers!
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- Well, I'm glad I took Page into the doctor, as, apparently, the skin all around his left eye is infected. It does look absolutely terrible, with red, swollen lumpiness taking over, and I gave him a tylenol tonight because the pain started spiking. I can't remember her diagnosis, but, yeah. Oral and topical antibiotics have been started, as well as lots and lots of mandatory cuddling (his insistence, not mine. I only use the corporate cuddling tactic in extreme anger situations).

Plus side: it isn't contagious.

- I am on the second to last week of computer class. Thank god. It is kind of nice to learn all some of the things that Word 2010 can do, but, lord I don't like my teacher's rubric. Still trying to decide whether to take the Excel class with her next semester or save it for the Spring when I can choose a different teacher... I think I'm starting to lean towards a computer-filled Spring semester. Maybe take Human Growth and Development this fall...

- It's hot out. Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwt. And it's supposed to get hotter as the week wears on. I suspect that tomorrow will find me actually dailing a phone to call friends with pools. (That is if Facebook messaging fails.) At least it dips into the 70's at night, which lets the (rising) humidity sink onto the ground a bit.

- The backyard might be completed soonish. The last pile of dirt was spread out today and the capstones were put in place, so it looks like they only have to have a few guys with rakes come over and finish up the smoothing out before they spray grass seed everywhere. Except, of course, for where they're still trying to figure out the drainage problem related to this house.

Did I mention how the other night I dreamt that the construction of a throughway was endangering the entire neighborhood, with houses of incremental closeness being torn down by earthmovers, and the neighbors in complete denial? *rolls eyes at drama queen subconscious*

- My bowl of rocks is very pretty... (Geoff isn't here to mention how tempted he always is to reach in and grab one of the "cookies". They are nice and round-like. :-)

- I have the foundation plants of my backyard design picked and planned out. Basically. I still have to choose a variety of rhodo, but otherwise I'm set. The fence will be lined with evergreen shrubs (the rhodo, pieris, and one each of China Girl/Boy hollies), and a golden elderberry will stand in front of the rhodo and pieris. I have yet to figure out the placement of the detail plants (hostas, ferns and the like), but I will. Oh, and a Sweet Autumn Clematis will be encouraged to climb all over the shed.

Oh, I am looking forward to having a shed!

- Bully for England, passing the gay marriage law. I wish conservatives here could see it the way Cameron does. Ah well. In time. Related to that, Page and I watched ST:NG, season 5's "The Outcast," which was a blatant allegory about the place of gays in American society. I am glad that in twenty years it isn't quite so bad in most American urban areas anymore, but it is discouraging that we have to keep having the same conversation over and over again. And that Riker's voice of reason gets overruled again and again and again...

Aaaaand, that's about it. I am feeling better, both mentally and physically, than I was yesterday around this time, even if it doesn't show through my words.
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Nap enough to restore brain function.
participate in virtual classroom thingy. try to keep my sarcasm at low.
study all things graphing. especially the inequalities. lord I hate inequalities.
study sequencing.
get cracked.
GO TO BED AT A REASONABLE HOUR!!!!

*flails*

Jul. 9th, 2013 07:02 pm
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OhgodOhgodOhgodOhgodOhgodOhgodOhgodOhgodOhgodOhgodOhgodOhgodOhgodOhgodOhgodOhgod...

I am so screwed.

I just took the practice algebra test, and I got 41%. Functions and graphing kicked my butt to the door and into the gutter. (I shouldn't count the questions on complex numbers as I haven't reviewed that material yet, but needless to say that added to my miserable outcome.)

The worst bit is that some of the answers really confuse me. Like, why is 2+x+y a factor of 4-(x+y)^2? I do not understand that. At all.

And how does (3(-1)^n-1)/2^n create the geometric sequence 3/2, -3/4, 3/8? Got it. Never mind.

(I also really, really need to review sequencing of all ilks. Only learned sigma's meaning today. Yikes.)

I am so, so screwed.

*meebbles*
averygoodun42: (snape)
Get those brain cells stalling...

Actually, I have been studying hard all day (ALL. DAY.) and am finding I need a little break right now. There's only so much about genomics I can process at one time.

*yawns*

However, I think I may just pass the test tomorrow if the test scores on the (stupid) homework program are any indication. It depends, of course, on how far from the study guide the professor decides to veer. *shrugs* I'm pretty sure I have chapter 10 down pat, 11 is still kinda shaky (though mostly on disease-related stuff that almost certainly won't be on the test), and twelve... Well, I still have to review 12.

My retake of the chapters 1-9 tests went relatively well, though. Better than I expected (except on photosynthesis, which I am still struggling with. Probably because I don't care). So hopefully I will sneak by with an honest A (as opposed to an A earned by grading on a curve or other such nonsense).

However, in 29 hours, I'll be done... for better or for worse. Definitely for the better for you, as you won't be subjected to my inanity where class is concerned. Just where the rest of life is concerned. ;-)

Damn, but I'm looking forward to the break, however.

But now I should get back to work. I really do have to at least review chapter 12. Even if the book is skewed way, way in favor of genetic engineering, beyond just the optimistic cool factor. (They hardly stress how potentially horrible it is/could be. *coughmonsantocough* Hell, they didn't even mention that Dolly died of old age while still young. Learned that from lecture.) I can understand the enthusiasm, especially in light of some truly awesome things they have accomplished, but they aren't really presenting a decent dose of realism (i.e. potential long-term consequences) to balance it, IMHO. Just skating over it by saying, "Oh, that's really unlikely." Uh-huh.

Ach well.

But, yeah. Should go. Need to get to bed on time tonight so as to be as well rested as my body will allow me to be tomorrow. *nods*

Yep.

Going now.

Really.



Wish me luck...

nnnggh

Apr. 20th, 2013 10:25 am
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Whinge and whine )

It looks like Geoff will be coming back on time, meaning he'll be leaving Brazil tonight. It still seems unreasonable that he'll have to wait for seven hours once he gets back into this country. (His flight lands in Charlotte at 7:30am; his flight home leaves Charlotte at 2:30pm.) I guess he try for stand-by once he gets through customs...

OMG, Page is talkative this morning. His subjects have ranged from ATP mills (demonstrated by legos) and electron prisons to Narnian wars with the inclusion of Sticky Man.

Oh, great. Just hurt his feelings after he hurt himself (by flailing) for attention. I'm a crap mom in the mornings.

I also have a to do list for the weekend. Yay.

Said list )

I think that's more than enough to be getting on with. Now need to go apologize to my son and get a cuddle.

ETA: Also, I want to move out of this country. The bombing suspect isn't getting Miranda rights. I understand the rationale, but it's still the wrong way to go. This is not how justice is wrought, and I wonder if most Americans can even see that anymore...

Boston

Apr. 16th, 2013 12:17 am
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I was in high school when Oklahoma City was bombed. It was shocking. It was stunning. And in my mind at the time, it was obviously the work of a pissed off American, not some Libyan terrorist as some of my friends thought. After all, who else would bomb an IRS building on Tax Day (aka Patriot Day)?

The Boston Marathon, however, isn't an IRS building. The JFK Library isn't the World Trade Center or any other kind of national symbol. Bombing them... Bombing them in such a crude manner... It doesn't make any sense, except to spread poisonous fear throughout the land. Make all of us feel unsafe.

All those I know and care about are safe and sound, though trembling. One of my friends would have been crossing the finish line at about the time the bombs went off (with wife and child cheering him on, of course) had he qualified for this year's race. Thankfully, he didn't. And they decided against going to watch. Thank goodness.

Another friend was running. I've heard through the grapevine that he and his wife are fine. Well... physically sound.

And while I am very sad for the families of those who died, I must say my real grief and horror is for those who survived. The ones whose bodies will never be the same. And I hope to all that's good that their plight of recovery will spark a debate about treatment (and care) of the disabled in this country.

Because that's the only real, long lasting good I can see coming from this. The only possible payoff for the fear-mongering that's going to escalate into something ever more insane over the next few days/weeks/months.

I just... don't understand. Or hope I don't. Because the faint glimmer of understanding I have is far worse than not knowing why.

Various

Mar. 15th, 2013 08:02 am
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First, a (darkly) funny video.

The rest of the (mostly) randomness. )

But now it is time for bed. Although napping during the day this week has been good, I do need more nighttime sleep if I'm to get all the way better before school starts up again.

Stupid LJ. Although, at least it saved the entire draft!

But on the plus side, I got lousy sleep because the stuff in my sinuses finally decided to really move. So yay. My headache is much better (although still there), and I feel like the end of this thing is near.

Also, Geoff is coming home in a few hours. That'll be nice.
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Former Senator Ron Paul isn't the most politic guy in the world, but he has a point.

Now, I know a lot of you, if not all of the American portion of my flist, know or love someone who is either in the military now or is a veteran. Hell, my brother and FIL are veterans (though my brother didn't serve in wartime). The following comments are not aimed at the current or former members of the military, as I do think they deserve a HELL of a lot more real respect (and rights) than we as a society afford them. This is aimed at our society. Our gun-obsessed, violent, destructive, shell-shocked culture that doesn't know respect from idolatry.

I respect those who have chosen to serve, or those who served against their will when the draft was still active.

However, I do not venerate them.

Anti-militaristic-society rant )

So, do I think Ron Paul's comments are impolitic? Yeah. But I also think he's got a better handle on the truth of the situation than most. We have become a nation who lives by the sword. And we will die by it if we can't lay it aside. And soon.

Bad things

Jan. 15th, 2013 02:22 pm
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1. Page is now home from school, sick. Well, feverish, anyway.

2. The crazies keep going off the wall. What is up with denying horrible but very real events? I mean, I suppose I should be thankful that the Sandy Hook deniers aren't also Holocaust deniers, as they need the horror of the Holocaust to fuel up their conspiracy claims, but...

*shakes head*

It's hard to be optimistic about humanity sometimes. However, fear is the real oppressor, so I'm going to continue to believe that the majority of people are actually quite decent, and it's just the media's fault for always highlighting the lunatic fringe, because that's what sells papers.

*shifty eyed look*

Another conspiracy theory, you say? No, because I don't believe (or think) the thirteen owners of western media are actively colluding to spread fear. I think they've just found through practice that this is what sells. Again and again and again.

(I might be scapegoating just a bit, though.)

Oh, how to fix the brokenness, when so much of what's real is broken...
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I think I'm in a rather stroppy mood again, seeing as I'm taking offense at silly things said online. This time, I think I will step away from the computer before I get fully enraged. I don't have the time or energy to spare for such silliness. Especially knowing it's of my own making, seeing as it's all a matter of interpretation.

Health woes ) I guess rest and drinking lots and lots and lots of water is the ticket.

But there's so much to doooooooooo...

On the other hand, that couch does look inviting. And the new mattress pad makes the bed quite comfy... And I got another book out of the library.......

In other news, I got my haircut yesterday, and it's fabulous having short hair again. I took lots of pictures, but I can't share any of them as my computer isn't recognizing my camera anymore. Stupid computer.

And in further random news, I have started my travel anxiety dreams already. Last night's involved driving down to DC (where we have, in RL, a six-hour layover) in the pouring rain with streets flooding here, there and everywhere. The rain stopped just after we got into town, but we didn't have enough time to stop and really enjoy the delights of the city (which most definitely was NOT the real DC, as it was way too quirky and cool and hilly; it was much more like a huge Provincetown than DC), so as I was trying to find our way to the airport (following the directions of a curbside sombrero maker), I was telling Page what I would do if we did have the time to explore. Namely, I'd choose one major museum, finally see the Mall, and maybe go explore the shops in Georgetown.

It was kinda cool, as far as anxiety dreams go.

But now I need to actually decide what I'm going to do - work on the stuff that needs to get done or rest. I think I'll put the decision off for the moment and go bathe. Which, hopefully, will help with the decision-making. *nods*

ETA: Shower had, hair washed, and no decision made, so I'm going with resting. And I am pleased to say that the chicken stock I made the other day is really frikkin good. I think the key is the addition of a few cloves of garlic and bay leaves to the pot. I doubt that adds any nutritional value, but it sure makes it tasty!

TGIF!
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Where two intelligent people show that being educated doesn't mean they can get the point (and where I Don't. Let. It. Go.) A facebook dramedy. )

ETA: After cooling down a fair bit, I posted this response:

Me: You know, MZ, I was all set to come back to the internet and refute every point and counterpoint you put up, but then you used that essay on inferential distances as an argument *ender* (I lol'd at the irony, btw) and I realized there's no point in trying to get you to see my point. Which is sad, really, because it's just a matter of semantics (contrary to your assumption, I actually do get your point; I just think the semantics are very important where science is concerned). Oh, and here's a wiki article for reference in case you're not familiar with the term. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Semantics
Semantics - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
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Semantics (from Greek: sēmantikós)[1][2] is the study of meaning. It focuses on ...See More

Me: Honestly, I view the whole hype surrounding global warming with a jaundiced eye. Yes, it's real and threatening, but why isn't the media pointing out hyping the other ecological disasters that are looming? I, personally, think it's because global warming is the one ecological disaster that they can use for power and money (cap and trade). There isn't much to be made by trying to heal the ocean's dead zones, for example, which, if you think about it, are a far more worrisome threat than global warming (global warming = ecosystem upset and change; dead ocean = ecosystem collapse). Oh, and where the ocean dead zones are concerned, it is known, 100%, to be humans at fault. http://earthobservatory.nasa.gov/IOTD/view.php?id=44677


I may regret it in the morning, but, well, today is a loss anyway. Might as well end it today rather than continue it into tomorrow.
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So, ever take the scissors to your eyebrows, think you've got the right amount on the blade, snip and then swear?

Yeah. That's what I just did. I now have one very funny looking eyebrow. And no, I am not going to snip the other one to match.

Fortunately, I have brown eyeshadow on hand to camouflage the error, but... Ooopsie.

Any idea how long it takes for eyebrows to grow? XD
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Fetal Personhood and Criminalizing Abortions: A Prosecutor's Perspective.

"So, personhood for a cluster of cells means that abortion could equal aggravated murder. Really, do Republicans want us prosecuting girls and women for the aggravated homicide of their zygotes? Is that the plan here? Do they actually want to impose the death penalty, or will life in prison be sufficient to satisfy their pathological need to punish women for the crime of being sexually active? Of course, if the woman is guilty, so is the man who facilitates her in procuring an abortion – boys, if you take your girlfriend to Planned Parenthood for an abortion, we’re going to imprison you both for murder. It’s called a “conspiracy.” In case you were wondering.

But if that isn’t their goal, if they would say “of course we don’t want that,” well, then, I have to ask, “what the hell do you want?” Because if you actually believe that a zygote is a person, then how can you demand anything less than justice for the murder victim? Acceptance of less than full accountability means that the zygote has less meaningful protection for its personhood than other persons."



What she doesn't point out is that under some of personhood bills that are out there, a woman could be charged with murder (or at least manslaughter) for having a miscarriage.


Are you pro-life? Are you really?

I think the "pro-life" title is, in most cases, terribly ironic. I'm pro-life. I do think believe life is sacred and should be cherished and respected. I think the death penalty needs to be abolished because it does not cherish and respect the lives of humans. I'm also ardently pro-choice because I think (not believe, but THINK) abortion needs to be legal so as to help cherish and respect the life of those already born.

No, the positions are really either anti-choice or pro-choice. I am anti-abortion/pro-choice. It is possible to be so without being a hypocrite because who am I to say what's an immoral decision for someone else? That would be me judging based upon my set of ethics, experiences and circumstances. The only other being who might possibly have a say in my (or anyone elses) moral decisions is God. If you believe in that. But I do know that when I thought of aborting Page's fetus, it felt evil. So I chose to carry him. Hence being anti-abortion/pro-CHOICE.


How Romney Would Treat Women

And this is why I will move out of the country if Romney is elected. It may take a year or so to make it happen, but to plan to continue living in a country where my opinions and decisions are considered beside the point just because of my sex is not only insulting, but untenable. And I just don't have the energy to fight against what seems to be the rising tide.

Bad/Good

Nov. 2nd, 2012 02:30 pm
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Read more... )

Right. Two and a half hours left till I pick up the guys. I will kick that irresponsibility to the curb and repot the swedish ivies do laundry start dinner STUDY. Namely, research.

Oh, IFBS/FASB convergence project, why do you have to be so... uninspiring?

*sigh*

*waves mournfully**(with an amused smirk)*

See you on the other side (of the weekend, that is).
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Please, please New Yorkers, please don't riot until after the election!

On the other side, however, please, please, get relief to those people soon, government and charity agencies!



And, to show the depths of my compassion, I'll add as a non sequitur that I really don't like accounting problems where the correct answer can only be achieved by typing in the the entire decimal. But I guess it's a good way to show how banks can make lots and lots of money on tiny fractions of a cent...

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