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[averygoodun42]

The last two mornings I have woken up very groggy, wanting nothing more than to go back to sleep. This morning was because of benadryl. I'll blame yesterday morning on being sickish.

Needless to say, my motivation for getting anything done is on a very low ebb at the moment. And since that's the only thing that makes me get anything done...

However, Babe is finally starting to act more like his healthy self, so that's good. We had a trying day yesterday because he had an upset stomach which resulted in several accidents. After the second one, he refused to get into the shower to clean up... so I let him sit in it (telling him that it would result in diaper rash). Stubborn boy. He lasted four hours before he came up, walking like he'd just got off a horse after a five hour ride. Poor boy.

I'm not convinced that it taught him anything either. Stupid boy.

At least that was the only power struggle going on, and we didn't get upset with each other.


As for me... It feels like my allergy shot has crawled under my skin and is hatching. It's really uncomfortable because the nest is where my skin nerves were damaged from my last shingles outbreak, so although I can feel it in my muscles when I scratch (because I, of Little Willpower, do scratch), I can only feel that uncomfortable numb sensation on the surface.

(PSA: Those of you with weakened immune systems... Get the freaking Shingles Vaccine! Make your doctor prescribe it! Your body will thank you.)

That and I'm acquiring a dozen butterflies per day thanks to this stupid speech I'm supposed to make. Have I mentioned how shy I am and how terrified of public speaking I am? Yeah. At least I have it down on paper which is three billion times better than winging it, considering I can't find any words, let alone the right words or right time to say any words if my life depended on it if I have to speak out loud to people I don't know intimately.

Oh yeah. Did I mention I had tea earlier today? Yeah. I'm going to forgo the tea Sunday morning in the hopes that the normal morning sluggishness will slow me down. Or at least counteract the nerves a bit.

At least my speech is shortish. Too bad I'm the first speaker.

Anyway.


I had a very odd dream the other day of an AU Potterverse. James survived, as did Harry, but James was completely corrupt. It was very dark. I don't know what happened to Lily... she never appeared in the dream. All I know was that Harry was not a good guy. He was also not the one with the task of saving the Wizarding world. I'm not even sure he was living in the Wizarding world, seeing as their manor had human servants. Or at least one.

I kind of want to go back to that dream to find out where it would have gone after such a dark beginning. Would it have lightened up? Would any of the familiar characters come into play (I'm not sure that Hermione wasn't the maid...)? If Harry wasn't the savior, was Neville? Did Neville survive? Was there a battle at all, or was it just a slow, pernicious slide into a dark age?

And how was James corrupted?

And was there any chance of redemption?

Anyway, that's the stuff that's filling my head at the moment. Hopefully the hydrocortizone cream will kill off one of those concerns very soon (can't use benadryl cream as it puts me to sleep as effectively as the pill does), and I can concentrate on either practicing some more or maybe writing.

Comments

[camillo1978.livejournal.com]

Dreaming about James? Ack!

It's way better speaking first. The longer you sit and listen to other people, the more nervous you get.

You'll be fab! Just remember to breath!

[shiv5468.livejournal.com]

Oh that sounds interesting... perhaps Snapey was the one to do the corrupting, so he could have Lily?

Good luck

[septentrion1970.livejournal.com]

Just stick to your speech, concentrate on it and it should be fine. At least, that's what I do when I feel nervous.