I'm grateful things aren't worse, but...
Dec. 10th, 2012 11:14 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
averygoodun42I'm so tired. I'm so tired, I almost don't care if I get an "A" on my finals or not. Almost.
Last night I had to stop my studying preparations because I was in so much pain (directly caused by the studying) that my stomach was starting to revolt. I took a handful of pain pills and tried to relax, but this morning I woke up still in pain. I have since taken another handful of pain pills, though my stomach is still roiling (and at this point, I'm not sure whether that's from the meds or the pain and anxiety).
I'm pretty sure that if I could only get another five to ten hours of sleep, I wouldn't need any pain pills whatsoever. Ach well. This is the last full day of school stress for the semester. Then there's only the Christmas stress to consider. Which isn't nearly as stressful, really.
*sigh* This last week has been really quite stressful. I've been fatigued and terribly busy (and having a bad period, to boot), Geoff has been very, worrisomely ill, and Page has been making very poor decisions, probably in response to his unacknowledged anxiety about Geoff's health and my inattention. I also haven't been sleeping very well, as the stress has been spilling over into my dreams. I've also been beating myself up a bit about not doing the best things for my health lately, like continuing drinking tea despite knowing I'm sensitive/borderline allergic to it, not getting enough sleep and rest, not exercising, and allowing myself to taste-test the cookies, including those that had chocolate in them. Which is almost certainly a factor in why I'm so achy today. And I had an allergic reaction (hives in my mouth) to something I ate or drank at the cookie swap. The most probable culprit was the soy lecithin in the tea ("natural flavors" you know), and there may have been soy in the chocolate chips in the grain-free cookie I tried made by someone else. It wasn't a serious reaction, I didn't even need any benadryl, but to get such an immediate reaction to something so minor... bah.
However, there are good things.
- Today is the last full day I have to stress over school for the semester. After this, I have six weeks to recover and regroup. And I only have one accounting class next semester. (And I am willfully forgetting how horrible next semester's schedule is.)
- While I have loads of studying to do today, I also have time to rest (and perchance to nap). In fact, I have set aside a few hours specifically for resting and relaxing as a part of my finals preparation.
-- related, the couch is clear of all laundry and legos, meaning I won't have to work to collapse on it.
- I gave Geoff the car today (he's still ill, but not ill enough to stay home from work), so I can't be lured out into the nasty weather for any errands or other distractions.
- My period is nearly over for the month.
- I'm getting a haircut on Thursday. (yayayayayay!!!)
- I have full use of my limbs, I don't have cancer, I'm not in so much pain that I need morphine (or even oxycodone), and I have a loving, intelligent cadre of family and friends.
That last one has all the important stuff in it. All the rest, both good and bad, is small stuff which I needn't sweat, right?
Happy Monday.
Last night I had to stop my studying preparations because I was in so much pain (directly caused by the studying) that my stomach was starting to revolt. I took a handful of pain pills and tried to relax, but this morning I woke up still in pain. I have since taken another handful of pain pills, though my stomach is still roiling (and at this point, I'm not sure whether that's from the meds or the pain and anxiety).
I'm pretty sure that if I could only get another five to ten hours of sleep, I wouldn't need any pain pills whatsoever. Ach well. This is the last full day of school stress for the semester. Then there's only the Christmas stress to consider. Which isn't nearly as stressful, really.
*sigh* This last week has been really quite stressful. I've been fatigued and terribly busy (and having a bad period, to boot), Geoff has been very, worrisomely ill, and Page has been making very poor decisions, probably in response to his unacknowledged anxiety about Geoff's health and my inattention. I also haven't been sleeping very well, as the stress has been spilling over into my dreams. I've also been beating myself up a bit about not doing the best things for my health lately, like continuing drinking tea despite knowing I'm sensitive/borderline allergic to it, not getting enough sleep and rest, not exercising, and allowing myself to taste-test the cookies, including those that had chocolate in them. Which is almost certainly a factor in why I'm so achy today. And I had an allergic reaction (hives in my mouth) to something I ate or drank at the cookie swap. The most probable culprit was the soy lecithin in the tea ("natural flavors" you know), and there may have been soy in the chocolate chips in the grain-free cookie I tried made by someone else. It wasn't a serious reaction, I didn't even need any benadryl, but to get such an immediate reaction to something so minor... bah.
However, there are good things.
- Today is the last full day I have to stress over school for the semester. After this, I have six weeks to recover and regroup. And I only have one accounting class next semester. (And I am willfully forgetting how horrible next semester's schedule is.)
- While I have loads of studying to do today, I also have time to rest (and perchance to nap). In fact, I have set aside a few hours specifically for resting and relaxing as a part of my finals preparation.
-- related, the couch is clear of all laundry and legos, meaning I won't have to work to collapse on it.
- I gave Geoff the car today (he's still ill, but not ill enough to stay home from work), so I can't be lured out into the nasty weather for any errands or other distractions.
- My period is nearly over for the month.
- I'm getting a haircut on Thursday. (yayayayayay!!!)
- I have full use of my limbs, I don't have cancer, I'm not in so much pain that I need morphine (or even oxycodone), and I have a loving, intelligent cadre of family and friends.
That last one has all the important stuff in it. All the rest, both good and bad, is small stuff which I needn't sweat, right?
Happy Monday.
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Date: 2012-12-10 04:57 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-12-10 05:32 pm (UTC)Good luck with the finals. Glad there are some good things, and some very good things amongst those good things.