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[averygoodun42]

Snape's Journal


May 15, 1997

I hate my life. I hate Voldemort. I hate Potter. I hate Potter. I HATE Potter. Hmm, maybe Minerva was onto something. I do feel better for having gotten that out of my system. Of course, now I have to burn the page.

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I can't believe she gave me a permanent, no wear, water and fire proof journal. I think I shall be poisoning her gillywater this evening. Of course, if I do, then I'll have admitted that I've used this pile of parchment. Hmm.

/entry



So yesterday wasn't good. I really, really, really don't like pain. I guess I'll have to forgo the S&M lifestyle. Shucks.

It's kind of funny, actually (in a rather morbid way), that the other month I bought two big bottles of acetaminophen from a wholesale club, thinking, "Well, I've been getting more headaches lately, and using more painkillers, and DH takes it regularly, so we'll probably be able to use this up before the expiration date in three years." In the last two weeks I've downed half of one bottle. And just now, looking up the active ingredient on webmd, I find that that's probably a bad thing... crap. I don't really want to switch to ibuprofen, though. That has stressful and scary side effects (on me).

Life was so much easier when I just stayed drug-free. Then all I had to deal with was a growing pain tolerance.

Hmm... to risk liver damage and the major hassle that entails, or blood problems and dealing with the emergency room staff and prednisone. Or I could just live with the knitting needle piercing my chest and tricep nerve for the next week or so.

Tough call.



Good news is that DH is vacuuming right now. Yay! He's such a Good Soul. Maybe I should switch his initials to GS...

Comments

[beletseri.livejournal.com]

Snape's journal entry was hilarious.

On a more serious note, please be careful taking over the counter pain killers in large quantities! I had some real problems in the past with severe neck pain, (it was so bad you couldn't even lightly touch my shoulder or neck on that side) and migraines that would last for days with lots of vomiting and dizziness and seeing spots. I spent nearly all my time in bed and I popped over the counter pills like candy looking for some sort of relief. Any relief. My pain had gotten the point that I wanted to just lay down and die, (I hurt everyday, 24 hours a day for over 2 years.)

I pay for taking those pills now. I have extreme nausea and violent gag reflexes when presented with smells that are unpleasant or strong, and I can't take any kind of OTC pain pill now without having stomach pain, nausea, and having to make sure I take some sort of buffering agent like pepcid ac first, and that only helps so much. Which really sucks when I am prone to getting migraines and occasionally am revisited by my neck pain when everything gets back out of alignment. So just be careful with how much you take them, and make sure you have food on your stomach when you do, ( I was real bad to just pop them on an empty stomach because the thought of eating when my migraine was in full swing made me feel more nauseated.)

[averygoodun.livejournal.com]

Yeah... I had about seven years of intensive prescription drug use (about ten years ago), so when I finally got off the stuff I said the hell to ALL drugs, because they all have nasty consequences. I've been trying very hard to stay within the daily dosage because, even though I was kind of flippant earlier, I really don't want to deal with liver damage or stomach damage or anything else those OTC's could possibly cause.
It's sad that we live in a society that relies on pills to solve our problems. Granted, those pills are genuine life savers at times, but... you know?

Have you consulted a chiropractor for your neck and migraines? If there's a reputable one around, it might do you a world of good though it might take a few sessions before it feels better rather than worse. (Sorry... blathering.)

[beletseri.livejournal.com]

I tried going to a chiropractor for a while actually. I actually got adjusted everyday for a couple of months, but it just made everything worse. I had been to see different drs and they all said it was stress and put me on vioxx, muscle relaxers and pain medication. I was on my way to the loony bin I think -- my marriage was falling apart, and I was going crazy, and my husband looked online and read about a woman with similar problems to mine, and she took magnesium and did these static exercises in a book she found created by Pete Egoscue. So we bought some magnesium, and we actually already had the book, (my husband is big on natural methods of pain relief,) so I started doing the exercises, they help move your body back into alignment gently without using force, and after about 2 weeks I felt like a normal person again. I did the exercises religiously for a couple of months, and was virtually pain free, but now I only do them when I start hurting again ( which makes DH really mad at me.) But for the most part now I am pretty good. Life was really bad there for a while. I know you know how it feels to hurt all the time. My husband says you should check into the nutrient MSN, it has unbelievable properties and it does all kinds of good stuff. But you should look it up and read about it, see if it might be for you, anything to make life easier is worth trying so long as it isn't going to hurt us!

[amsev.livejournal.com]

Pain sucks!! Acetaminophen does absolutely nothing for me except make my ears ring. Perhaps good ol' aspirin will at least dull the pain? That, or what's that stuff that came out after ibuprofen became an over-the-counter drug? The stuff that's supposed to last all day (It's also an OTC drug)? Advil? No that's ibuprofen. I think.

I personally haven't used it, leery of "new" pain medicines, 'profen knocks me out and I have to take aspirin at toxic levels for it to work for me any more. Fortunately a) I'm not in any chronic pain right now and, b) I have a very high pain tolerance.

In a strangely twisted way, meditation works to at least lessen pain. When one is meditative, one's muscles are relaxed, so one isn't aggravating the pain by tensing against it.

[averygoodun.livejournal.com]

Yes it does! The worst bit is knowing that pain that's a 7 out of 10, but persistent, is worse than a short burst of 10, and then experiencing it. Blah!

(major self pity follows)

Yeah, I'm leery around 'profen. I had a really nasty experience with thin blood partially due to 'profen years ago. Do not want a repeat. Thing is, I also have asthma, and tylenol increases the risk of an attack. Aspirin does funny things to blood as well, and doesn't dull the pain one bit, so that's out. Percocet was really nice after Babe was born, but it makes me sleepy, as does codeine, so no prescription drugs either (opiates actually would be prescribed for this, if I could hand Babe off to someone for a week or so).

And, then there's Babe. Meditation is very difficult with a fussy baby around. It's becoming obvious why the Buddhists delegate women to the lower echelons if meditation is key to achieving Nirvana. Women care for babies, therefore, they can't meditate properly, therefore they will never achieve Nirvana (especially if they're prone to dying in childbirth).

So basically, I'm screwed for the time being. *sardonic laugh* Fortunately, the pain is getting more bearable as time goes by.

Thanks for the sympathy!

[amsev.livejournal.com]

I have no idea whether you live in a densely populated area or not. I currently hale from a small(!) city of 60,000, and our regional hospital offers a variety of support groups, including one for those who suffer from chronic pain. You may wish to explore that. Pain can be terribly isolating, and even if it's a steady "7" it can erode you away.

Having a Babe can be terribly isolating, too (thus speaketh the Maiden Third Cousin and Professional Godmother -- read: not from personal experience, but from observation).

I sincerely hope you are making quality time for yourself where you are doing exactly what it is that you want to do during that space of time. My godson's mom learned that she couldn't beat herself up with "musts" and "shoulds." His maternal grandmother broke it to her in her gentle :-) inimitable style: "Beth, you simply HAVE to stop MUSTurbating!" So remember -- No musturbation!

[amsev.livejournal.com]

'profen is really hard on the liver and thins the blood, so that one should be approached with caution anyway. My liver's getting enough damage from my psychopharmaceuticals and the rather more than occasional beer I throw its way.

[amsev.livejournal.com]

and one more for the road: today's entry in Snape's journal made me snicker. Poor Snape, he can't even trash his own journal entries now!