averygoodun42 | Am tired, will travel

Anyone willing to host a vegetative humanoid in need of a week's rest? Anyone? Beuhler?

I'm tired. It doesn't seem like I've done all that much, but I guess what I've done has caught up with me. That, however, is better than being depressed, which I thought I was this morning until I had a good (teary) look at what's going on.

So, I've rearranged my thinking and action a fair amount.

I am back on meat as of lunch an hour ago. I know I've said it before, but I really am one of those people who NEED red meat. I wilt without it. Apparently, my digestive system goes into revolt without it, too. So, I shall use up the remnants of generic beef that are in our freezer and then *gulp* switch to grass-fed, free-range beef twice or thrice a week. Small portions. With lots of veggies to fill the stomach. *nods*

I am also, as of last week, back on raw veggies. Salad is a good thing.

I will continue to forgo legumes, nightshades, gluten and, most importantly, sugar, but only up to a point. Blackstrap molasses still seems to be my friend, and maple syrup is a nice treat.

But mostly, I will forgo worrying about it. If I eat something "bad", I'll up my milk thistle that day and drink lots and lots of water for a couple days after. But I will not worry about it. I will not beat myself up about it, because really? The stress of dieting for health is - heh-heh-heh - killing me. So, I'm not going to do it anymore. If I want to do a liver cleanse at some point, I will, and I am also going to go the herbal supplement route, because it's FAST. Horrible and ugly and nasty and brutal, yes, but fast trumps all in this case. I cannot be out of commission for months at a time, dammit!

Hopefully the acupuncture will help all of this stuff resolve anyway. It, too, might make me feel like crap at first, but I know it will abate.

I'm still not feeling very communicative, but I'll leave the comments on just in case you care to weigh in. I probably won't respond, but, like the flist, I will read, think and feel.